i never met anyone like her. i didnt even know she existed. all these poeple you come into contact with. people you never thought existed. people you think would never exist. at least not to you. because you've sat there. all alone. staring at the floor. but no one was paying attention to you. and you made no attention. i couldnt figure out if she was the lonelist person in the world. or if i really just had made this whole thing up.

...in heaven everything is fine,
in heaven everything is alright,
you got your good thing,
and i have mine...


so he's been gone for a little more than 2 weeks now.

i havent done anything too different. my room has been surprisingly clean.

i took my final today. and i cant wait till school starts up again on the 28th.

hip hip horray.


Movies not to watch when your lonesome, or all by yourself:

GHOST. its been on cable tv a lot. damn television. im turning mine off, as soon as a i get a bigger one.

i wish i had barrowed jason's super nintendo before he left to florida.




he has his good thing, and i have mine.

it feels like he died. because he's never coming back. i was with him everyday for months straight, and then he's gone, forever. it feels like he's dead. i miss him.

omg.

i miss him like crazy. everything. this is what we need. serious time apart. during this time i hope to control my fucking bipolar because its killing me and everyone else around me. sometimes i don't even think its worth getting better if jason and i dont get back together. maybe along the way i'll establish some good friendships with people i come in contact with.


i miss him.


and i think im fired from lucky brand jeans.

ummmm magic mushrooms.


love ya j!

"I used to like you."
"I used to like myself too."